I'm Still A Kid - Nov. 18, 2012

I’m still a kid, you see, but I’d almost forgotten. I’d moved away from this playful core of innocence & wonder in a years-long game of make believe that I was something other, something to fulfill the fantasy implanted by the static hiss of frozen culture, something I thought I was supposed to be to impress the idle chit-chat of passing acquaintances.

Then one day while at play the question came to me: Why work your entire life around a passing moment of external acceptance? You must live in the company of yourself always. This unique essence that flows through you is the one to build your life around. 

There is untold power in the simple act of expressing who you are on the deepest, purest level & allowing others to not only be illuminated by this but inspired to uncover their own light & let it shine.

But how do you know what you are meant to be? Well, what did you ♥love♥ to do as a kid? 

There is something specific that invigorates you and enlivens all of your senses. You know this feeling well.  It's when the whole world is simultaneously eclipsed & integrated into your act of being in rapturous harmony with the moment.​Things just flow. It is the place where we find the most support & the most solace. When you're there, it's almost too easy to just be. Just being what you are meant to be, wholly & completely given over to the power thriving & pulsing in you, is the supreme devotion and the most sincere worship of your Truth.

But life can be a bit like a church with a playground inside. We’re compelled to be stoic in this hallowed place to the point we nearly forget the swings are there to swing upon, not just sit still. The slide is there to be slid down & climbed again. It’s OK (and in fact intended) to be merry as we go ‘round.

We can rejoice in play. We can find a sacred place to swing & slide & go merrily 'round.

Right now, I’m finding this sacred space to play by finding messages in magazines & old books, hidden amidst the everyday ads & articles, then extracting those puzzle pieces with scissors & blades. This way I can sift through & intuitively organize the message meant to be.

This whole process is symbolic of my life right now. I am picking through the elements of me constructed over a lifetime to find the most meaningful bits so I can focus on & rearrange them into something stunningly poignant & seemingly new. Yet they were there all along.

So I have decided to play and jump and yell. I have decided that kid in me still needs playtime and naps and to be excited by his creations. And I have decided to give that kid what he needs.

You can decide some things, too. What would you decide to do?

We were wild with joy because tomorrow

We would leave the known world behind.

What a wonderful feeling . . .

To be able to decide your own life and destiny

Obeying without limitations your own mysterious call,

And dreams and passions.

- Douchan Gersi

Would you leave the known world behind and perhaps remember when you were once excited by the simplest things?

∞ DJ ∞